So I haven’t been looking forward to this, but leaving you in silence is a worst choice than just biting the bullet and making the announcement. The Xaxutsu Project will be going on hiatus for the foreseeable future. While I’m aware I already kind of have hiatuses between releases, this is going to be different. I’ve always been working on stuff during those hiatuses, but that isn’t going to be the case for this one. I do want to talk about why I am doing this though. The two main reasons are that I’m just not at the level musically I want to be for this project, and I want to start making music outside of the scope of the project.

There is lore to the Xaxutsu universe, and a story. A story I just don’t feel I have the capability to express within my current limitations. Almost all my music education so far in life has been with wind instruments, with some slight work in percussion, vocals, and music theory. I find that I do a lot of my current work on piano, an instrument I did not truly learn. I want to work on improving my technique and improv skills on it, as well as brushing up on and expanding my music theory knowledge. This isn’t required to make music, but it is required for what I want to make within the scope of this project.

Which brings me into the second reason I mentioned. While the music I make here is fundamentally based on my life experiences, it is all done within the context of the universe it takes place. Lately my life has gone in very different places than I could have expected, and I wish to explore that in my music. However, the stuff I wish to explore does not have much relevance to the world I’ve built. On top of that, I really need to sit down as figure out the story more concisely, so that I have a guideline to follow for future releases.

With all that said, now’s the part that’s really going to suck. I will be continuing to make music under a new name, one not tied to a lore or a story (besides my own personal one). However, I will not be sharing that name with you all. One thing I’ve come to regret is how much my identity is known. My family all know I run this project, and it is not hard for a stranger to figure out who I am. For me, the struggle is that having people I know in real life know what I’m making makes it hard to truly make what I want. I’m afraid of the judgement, or worse for me: making people uncomfortable. I’d much rather start fresh with no expectations of who I am and what I should make. While I know the anonymity won’t last forever (I’m not the best at hiding myself digitally), I hope it will at least give me the time I need to grow into it and be in a better place to let all that I am be known. For those who truly want to know where I’m going, I’ll leave you a hint: My name will start with V and Purple will be an important color. I do ask that if you figure it out, please keep it to yourself.

Thank you all for the 3 years now of Xaxutsu! This has been a very formative part of my life, and I do plan on coming back when I’m ready. Till then, love you all!

~ Xaxutsu